It has been a while since I came back to my blog. Why? Hard to explain. I would probably need to write a novel about it. In short, it’s related to the title of this post. Acceptance.

I do believe that I do accept most of the things, as any other human on this Earth, which happen in this path called life and I do believe that I accept them just the way they are. I accept the fact that we can’t change other people, I accept that people are not always who we want them to be, I do accept the fact that sun rises every morning and also I accept any other natural phenomena in the world. But, and a strong but, I do have problem, a BIG problem accepting that I can’t change anything related to me.

I have a problem just accepting that I am stuck in some situation, which I don’t have power to change. When I find myself in such situation, I just can’t help to wonder what can I do to change what I don’t like. I can’t just accept it, I can’t just suppress it and ignore it. And it’s really not about what I can or can’t do, it’s about what I WANT and I DON’T WANT.

But, sometimes it’s just not so easy to see the way out, when you feel all the time that you are drowning, that you are in some place struggling to get out, but somehow you don’t find the right path. It feels like you are drowning in a big ocean and you are trying to get out, but there is some big stone attached to your leg, which for some strange reason, you can’t seem to notice. You are kicking, pulling all your strengths to get out, but somehow you are still drowning and you don’t see the obstacle which is pulling you down.

And if for another strange reason, you can finally find the reason, the obstacle which is keeping your from getting out, you can realise that the way out was rather simple and quick.

Maybe you will ask yourself now, what does this have to do with acceptance. Let me tell you… It has plenty to do with acceptance. In this horrifying situation, where I am stuck and drowning in a big reckless ocean, due to the very simple reason (which I can’t seem to notice in that stressful situation), what would happen if I would just accept that I am drowning? I would probably slowly begin to loose my power and just let go myself in some certain point, which would lead me to my sad ending. But what if I can’t or better said, I don’t want to accept that? I would probably use all my powers to find the reason, which is keeping me from getting out. When I would find the reason, I would be relived and tremendously happy to get out. So, not accepting the fact that I am somehow stuck in some pretty bad situation, would most certainly get me out.

One would think that the story ends here. But, it doesn’t. Getting out of horrible situation is really great, but what happens after is what really counts. Now that I know what was the reason for my bad situation, I need to take it as an important lesson. I need to learn from that situation and if I didn’t like that situation, I should not let myself to be in it again.

Most importantly here, I need to accept that the only one to blame for being in such situation is me, only me and no one else. When I am able to accept that I am the only one responsible for my actions, no matter if they are good or bad, no matter if someone influenced me or not, I am always the one who is responsible for what happens in my life.

As for conclusion, accept that everything related to you, you have the power to change it. Accept the good and bad actions that you take in life. Learn from them. And move on richer for priceless experiences.